Projectors: The Energy Behind Being Seen
Human Design, Unearthing Projectorhood
“Pick yourself, see yourself, recognize your magic, before they do.”
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fear of being seen
I am not a believer that we Projectors are incapable of seeing ourselves because of the mechanics of our aura.
We are completely capable of having awareness of ourselves, and understanding ourselves (although not completely alone, which is why we need other Projectors in our life). Our aura, which is what Human Design is all about, is outwardly focused, penetrating and designed to naturally laser in on the other each time we energetically interact with one.
As we lean on this natural energetic configuration of our aura, and through S & A, each time we are invited and recognized; when there is an energetic opening, we learn a part of ourselves in the other and in the process too.
Yet most of us Projectors carry a collective wound of fearing to be seen.
Being seen here has nothing to do with holding awareness and understanding ourselves, but is deeply tied to recognizing ourselves authentically, including the parts that feel imperfect, flawed, inconsistent, fragmented and vulnerable and YET still show up wholeheartedly as we are.
Visibility here is deeply entwined with our process of waiting.
The fear of being seen, feeling inadequate, insignificant and unworthy are the byproducts of staying in the familiar; of feeling small and holding receivership wounds.
This familiarity provides us with a perceived sense of safety; of feeling sheltered and protected but leaves us far from feeling empowered and fulfilled. This inadequacy plagues many of us and eventually shows up in our lives through our unfulfilled professions, and relationships; creating dissonance and dysregulation through our mental and physical health. This familiarity holds us back from what could otherwise be possible.
This familiarity is also the reason why you are lying on your bed in the middle of the night, questioning your existence, your inevitable exhaustion and the choices that led you here right at this very moment.
Fearing to be seen is an example of a receivership block that hinders how we approach active waiting as a Projector and they do not just show up in business; they show up everywhere in life. They are rooted in the same nervous system imprints, childhood conditioning, and ancestral patterns. They play out in subtle, everyday interactions.
Explore my article on “What Learning to Receive Has Taught Me: Healing Receivership Wounds” to explore the intersection of healing your fear of being seen and receiving. Download the free “When Receiving Heals” toolkit at the end of the article. If you are a Projector business owner, join me in my 7-Day Projectors In Business Receivership Challenge as we recalibrate your nervous system to receive recognition, clients, and ease without force.
The truth is, the discomfort of growth is always less dangerous than the illusion of security. And the healing work of growth isn’t the path of least resistance, but a path of choice and consciousness.
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My story
For over two decades, I kept a part of myself hidden from the world.
I have always been told that I could write well and string emotions into words when others couldn’t.
For the longest time during my teenage years, I kept a private LiveJournal blog. In there, I wrote about the lowest of my lows and the highest of my highs; all the challenges, heartbreaks, and trials in life have gotten me this far. I wrote poems and prose about love, floating clouds, impermanence, the feeling of being unbelonged, and misunderstood. I was fearful of the world seeing this side of me, this erratic, moody, and melancholic side of Sylvia, who secretly wore her heart on her sleeve. The blog was akin to the immaculately handpicked songs in my private playlist on my first iPod nano (bless those simpler days), which I rarely shared with anyone.
During that time, I also had a nickname, the Elmo girl, mainly because I was known as the girl who would always smile widely without her teeth. Smiling was masking for me. Smiling was self-protection for me.
“You look different when you smile with your teeth.”
”I love when you smile with your teeth— you look beautiful, Sylvia.”
I remember looking at myself in the mirror countless times, wondering when the day would arrive when I would feel comfortable smiling with my teeth.
Comfortable, being in my own skin.
A question I often get asked now is, “How did you end up starting your business?” How did this decision unfold?
The truth was, I did not set out to start a business, nor specifically a soul-led business.
Back in 2019, I was beginning to pull myself up piece by piece from what I can only describe as my second dark night of the soul. It was that year that I delved into topics I intentionally pursued, such as spirituality, self-healing, self-care, and personal growth. I decided to share the tools that supported me and my journey on a public blog, with the sole purpose of inspiring, uplifting, and empowering others.
I just knew I was ready to be seen.
I wanted to be seen because, heck, I literally pulled myself up from an ashes-to-flames moment.
Nothing ahead could be worse than what I had undergone, and here I was still breathing. But it wasn’t just that, I knew there was no going back to the version of me before.
And this version of me today was ready to be seen.
Fast forward 7 years, and Arawme and I have evolved, and here I am in this chapter of my life, running a soul-led business full-time as a Projector mentor and business guide.
Would I ever imagine myself where I was 2 decades ago? No.
Well, I just decided to start healing and stop hiding.
I decided to be the co-creator instead of the victim.
I decided to finally let myself be seen.
Do it for no one but you.
“What if the setback is the setup?
What if the struggle is the seed?
What if the challenge is the catalyst?
What if the mistake is the magic?
What if the obstacle is the opportunity?What if the test is the testimony?
What if the darkness is the only way to see the light?”
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seeing ourselves, letting the world see us
As Projectors, many of us shared a similar upbringing where we were conditioned from a young age. Like many others, our authenticity was stripped from us where being ourselves, including being sensitive, often tired, and feeling too much was not okay. Alongside that, we downplay and dismiss these gifts, we adopted coping mechanisms instead, including staying small, dimming our light, fitting into the mold, staying passive, and keeping to ourselves. We prioritized being accepted, belonged, connected and loved- by societal and parental standards- after all, that’s how it has always been right?
We say yes to doing more, even when it feels inauthentic, even when our bodies are lamented and our souls are stifled. We accept mediocrity and feel apologetic in any instances where we do take up space. We put others’ needs before ours. We forgot how to celebrate ourselves. We store this inadequacy and bitterness in our bodies that eventually emerge as physical ailments. We allow the self-sabotage tendencies of our mind to withhold ourselves before we can explore the fullest potential and expression of any outcome (a correct relationship, a job prospect, a bridge opportunity, etc). We chase external validations to feel seen by others except we hold no clue to see ourselves. We seek instant gratifications through our devices to shut down these provoking nudges and avoid looking at our gaping emptiness.
Cultivating visibility and allowing ourselves to be seen is vital for us as Projectors so we can correctly enter recognitions and invitations when they arrive. It is not just about letting the world see us, it is about you seeing you.
When we hold ourselves back because of our fear of being seen, we are downplaying our gifts, wisdom, highest potential expression, and uniqueness as a Projector. We are holding ourselves back from opportunities, synchronicities, connections and soul-aligned individuals from our fractals (if you are looking at the angle of service).
We are dimming our light.
Remember this: we are always and only one decision away from living our most authentic selves. Arriving there requires your devotion to healing and an allegiance to your unique divinity.
Healing the energy to be seen has everything to do with holding a high self-worth consciousness and rising to the vibrational match of worthiness so the Universe can hand over the Projector success we desire. If healing the fear of being seen and showing up with conviction, grace, authenticity and self-compassion sounds like something you are ready for, check out my 4 tips below. Know that these tips are relevant to ALL energy types including Projectors.
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4 Tips To Heal The Energy Behind Being Seen
01 Deep Self-Inquiry
Find yourself a quiet, undisturbed moment and answer the following questions below. Observe what comes up and write it all down. Notice the areas in your life where you notice yourself withholding yourself back and/or when you are afraid to step up and let yourself be seen. Most of all, acknowledge them. Acknowledge that they exist, that it is safe to feel this way and they are all valid. Allow space and time for yourself to integrate, heal and love yourself even more tenderly through this self-inquiry. Make room for your pain too.
Why am I so afraid of being seen? Where have I kept myself small?
Where am I holding myself back in my career, relationships and interests?
When was the first time the world told me it was okay to stay small and hidden?
How can I heal the fear of being seen with love, instead of fear?
Will I rather stay hidden forever or can I rise to the highest potential of my being, of service, of our collective’s mission, a part of something greater than myself?
What is the worst thing that can happen? How can I turn it into an opportunity?
How can I shift this wounding to power and wisdom?
02 Keep It Fun, Playful and Expansive
The fear of rejection and being judged comes up the most when we are pursuing things that mean the most to us.
We look at them as an extension of our identity and our worthiness. Sometimes the outcome does not immediately turn out exactly as we envision out to be or turn out the way our mind wants it either (sometimes, they turn out better too). Any form of criticism (especially the ones from ourselves) or setbacks can quickly feel disconcerting and bring any pursuits to a halt. It is important to remind yourself to keep the process fun, light-hearted and playful.
Check in with yourself often: Am I having fun? Am I too focused on the result and the outcome that this does not feel as fun as I thought it to be?
Always remember that what you are consciously choosing to invest your energy in brings out an element of joy for you. Don’t let the fear-based results and the outcome confiscate that joy; don’t let the destination override your journey.
Understand that mastery requires patience, repetition, consistency and dedicated practice. Just because you are not there yet, does not mean your knowledge, your wisdom, your guidance or your energy is not enough. You are enough as you currently are and the world needs more of your medicine.
Approach every opportunity, when invited with a beginner mindset, and release the need for you/your work/your medicine to be in its perfected form. Take micro-steps towards each step of being visible. If necessary, keep your work sacred and protect it at all costs so long you feel comfortable. Being visible does not mean be-friending fear right away. Being visible is choosing love and managing your perceived fear at the same time. Above all, know that regardless of the outcome or the result, you are wholeheartedly enough as you are. Recognizing and acknowledging yourself exactly where you are is a powerful testament to your healing and growth.
03 Surround yourself with your allies
Are you currently surrounded by people who are proud of you and celebrate you when you WIN in life? Are they self-inspired and supportive of your journey in healing and growth? Do they love you enough to hold space for you and/or call you out when you start self-sabotaging yourself?
Community is often overlooked yet it is hugely important in the theme of healing. Especially as non-sacral beings and living in a world dominated by sacrals, we can easily lose ourselves in the current of measuring and comparing ourselves with our fellow sacral pals- the MGs and the Generators. In this article 10 Gentle Reminders For Projectors To Thriving In A Sacral-Dominant World, I share the importance of finding community, like-minded individuals and expanders.
04 do something that challenges yourself every week
The reason why receiving and fearing to be seen, or taking actions behind it, feels overwhelming and disruptive to our nervous system is that there is a difference between intellectualizing and awareness vs embodying it. Most of us are unable to move beyond this threshold because our body is only used to a level of safety for a long time. This level of safety kept our nervous system calm and regulated, and anything unfamiliar creates resistance to our current self. The truth is, this process exists because our old selves want to keep us in the old programming, and challenging it inevitably creates reactivity in our body, manifesting as resistance, self-doubt, and fears.
One way to build safety within our bodies to hold this new level of bandwidth is to provide physical evidence for our brains. This includes doing something that scares or confronts you each week. It could be a challenging or limiting belief, having a difficult conversation you have been procrastinating, saying no to someone you love, trying out a new fashion style/makeup, listening to a new genre of music, or even taking a different route home.
The objective is to normalize disruption so your nervous system can calibrate itself when you feel discomfort and no longer flag it as fear, but growth.
If this sounds like something you feel called to deepen your work in or lean on for support, I share more about this work in my group containers and 1:1s below.
I hope this article has been supportive for you and that you feel the call to heal your visibility wounds and take a step towards living your most authentic self. Arriving there will require your devotion to healing and an allegiance to your unique divinity.
One of my biggest callings since awakening as a Projector is to serve other Projectors like yourself. I once felt overwhelmed, clueless, and alone. Deconditioning and stepping into our Projectorhood can feel confusing at times. Do check out my other free resources in “Unearthing Projectorhood”.
I have designed my free resource, “Projector’s 3 Agents of Change Guidebook” to support Projectors like you in becoming and feeling empowered as we decondition and embark on our Projectorhood journey. In this 30+ page toolkit, I share my tried and tested (line 3 here) personal in depth-expansive practices to assist you in activating your Projector divinity today.
For my fellow Projector entrepreneurs and business owners, explore my free 7-Day Projectors In Business Receivership Challenge, where I will take you on a journey of recalibrating your nervous system to receive recognition, clients, and ease without force. Learning how to receive has been one of the most transformative and healing lessons of my journey as a Projector and a soul-led business owner.
The Projector Remembrance is a powerful, small-group and deeply intimate 12-week group mentorship container designated to support and uplevel Projectors with the guiding awareness of their unique divinity. The program is rooted in:
ꫂ differentiation- first
ꫂ community
ꫂ practical embodiment
Centering around the technology of Human Design and Neuroscience,
The Projector Remembrance (TPR) is for soul-led Projector women who hold the readiness to wholeheartedly uplevel, ground in their Projector resiliency and expand their confidence in their Projector divinity in a practical manner while— walking alongside an empowered Projector women community.
If you feel called to truly live your design as the Projector you came here to be and be surrounded in a community with other like-minded, empowered Projectors, I welcome you to join us in this sacred container. This is a seasonal offering that only runs live every Spring and Fall alongside the Equinoxes. Explore it here.
Explore my signature Projector mentorship: a high-touch, personalized, and intimate 16-week program with me as your Projector mentor. This is the highest level of support for working with me in a 1:1 setting. If you are desiring change and carry the readiness to be seen and aligned on a cellular level as an empowered Projector, I’d love to explore how I can support you.
Below are other ways I can support you. It is my hope that you find one that supports you wherever you are in your journey.
Ways to work with me:
→ (free)Download the Projector’s 3 Agents of Change Guidebook + join my Unearthing Projectorhood newsletter here.
→ (free)Join the 7-Day Projector In Business Receivership Challenge + join my Projector In Business newsletter here.
→ Becoming Empowered: A Personalized Human Design Guide
→ Projector in Business Workshop
→ 1:1 Self-Projected Mastery Immersion
→ 1:1 Unearthing Projectorhood Uplevel Session
→Soft Business Deep Dive 2-day 1:1 Immersion
→ The Projector Remembrance Group Container (Only available twice a year, we begin again in the Spring)
→ Shui 1:1 Bespoke Projector Mentorship
→ Projector Soft Business : 1:1 Bespoke Projector Business Mentorship
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6 Soft Practical Tools That Have Expanded My Success As A Projector
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I am Sylvia— a spiritual writer, certified Human Design reader, Projector mentor, and business guide behind Arawme,
“Arawme” is a raw me put together.
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